Whew! There, the big sigh. Every time I logged in here and post something, I've always been telling myself okay, no more rant, just art rant. Yet, when looking back to the past entries, I think I always start them with some rants, hahaha. Well, though! I guess that's the other purpose of this blog, anyway!! Telling the truth, 2021 was a trainwreck. Although perhaps, not as bad as 2020. Dunno, kinda hard to compare when you don't really remember hahaaa. I was thinking to start this year strong in improving my drawing, and continuing the leftover things that I want to draw from 2020. It did went well for the first-half, not so much for the latter one. While I genuinely feel happy when finishing the drawings, doing the process itself, and finishing what I want to finish, I just can't deny that I've been exhausting myself in doing so. Drawing was... not as fun as it was due to some reason. Mostly personal, mostly insecurities. No one forcing me to keep drawing when I don't want to, and I know that from the back of my head. Yet, for some months I was just keep denying that and tried my best to draw. To the point that I finally snapped and got enough of it, I guess haha. The thought of giving up did cross my mind, as I'm done with my personal project in August. However, though, I can't bring myself to do that. Since in the end, I still love the feeling that I have when drawing something. Knowing that indeed I got exhausted, I decided to take things slow for the rest of the year. I didn't draw at all on November. Mainly just progressing with my WIP with a very slow pace. It sucks, though, unable to make something. But at the same time, I don't want to be forced when I don't want to. At the very least, though, I always telling myself that I did something. I also tried to distract myself by doing my other hobbies and working on other things. These... two? three months have been fun for me, due to that, actually! I feel myself a bit better, and the guilty feeling doesn't get into my head anymore whenever I don't draw something. Still though, when there are times that I think I want to try drawing, I tried to do so. I think it's very apparent, if one see from the art summary above. For the latter months, I opted to do more flat-ish sketchy art than what I did in earlier months. Yes, I got the exhaustion and the burnt out. Yes, it seems that I got lazier as well. However, I think I did my best on it. I did draw almost everyday on December, though.
Mainly just coloring some sketches as warm ups and consistency training. I might compile it later when it finished! Oh, I also draw those two above, too. That's the newest thing for this month, and I'm just happy I can finish them. I'll...... finish the Halloween WIP later.... when I got the willpower to... Come to 2022, though! I don't have any big resolution whatsoever. Nor any art that I've planned in months, as opposed to this year. I just want to do what I can do in front of my eyes. As long as I still continuing drawing, I think it's enough. Lately I feel the sketchy style as something more enjoyable for me to do, as well. So I think I'll keep drawing in that way until I feel comfortable again on my skin to tackle something serious. So, until then and godspeed! Comments are closed.
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