Not a talk, just a rant This will be an unhinged rant, so TL; DR things were changing, I've returned, and will try my best to update stuff here! Hello! It's been a while since the last time I updated this journal. Specifically this section, since as you can see, I do dabble on the other section. Frankly said, I was not in a good place from the end of 2020 to... around mid-2021? Things were bad, I was drained mentally, and I can say that certain things did make me not wanting to do anything creatively. Or at least, being creative and posting it somewhere online. I think it's pretty clear on the latest entries on my art journal that I tend to be quite weary and complaining the same thing over and over, hahaha. Thinking that keep being like that would just break me, I shifted my focus to other things. I picked up my other hobbies, took new interests, got busy on my job, etc. It worked, I felt less suck. 2022 started with a good start, and I was set on a good footing, at last. Yet, I couldn't say the same thing for my creative side. Honestly, I don't find any more enjoyment in interacting on social media, let alone rambling about my fictional kids or posting any kind of art online. I don't want to deal with algorithm or sense of insecurity whenever I post something I create--and boy I wish I really can do that, just like how no thoughts head empty I am in posting game screenshots and random food shots. I just hate the way things changed. The place where you supposed to feel positive and secure to let out and share things that you've created and love is just not a same as it was. Technically, it is supposedly easy to not care about your surrounding and just... idk, fill yourself with positivity or look at the bright side of the change itself. But in reality, haha, maybe I've become really jaded that I feel drowned and suffocated in that surge of “positivity”. Even if I've tried to do measure by myself and curate my feed with things that can genuinely make me feel happy, still, sometimes the trigger just pull itself and appears on the places I didn't expect most. I hate that, I hate having negative emotions about it, and I hate succumbing to it. It became uncomfortable. And I have been hurt too, by some careless remarks and conducts that I supposedly not to take into heart but I was struggling to do so. So I was like, welp, that's it. No worth whatsoever to keep being there. No more sharing. Nada. Even so, I'm still the old me who can't let things go easily. I'm still on my socials, though only for dumping things about my other interest and lurking about said interest. It's better and less stressing that way. And in the span of three years, even until now, I actually keep headcanoning about my kids. Still giggling and kicking my feet on the air about them, with my friend, in a safe place. I may have had enough about sharing things about the kids on the socials, but I still want to write here. I still love pouring down my thought on this journal. This little corner of internet without any audience that I'm aware of is still a safe place for me, and it's enough. More than enough. And that's why, I've returned. So, to cut to the chase, Subject Madness!I've cleaned up the Subject Madness! blog, and most of the entries written there will be updated here with some rewrite. Managing two separate journals is a hassle, hence why I decided to compile everything here. I miss these kids and I want to relive the memories I have with them heheh. Assemble! Magical KidsThis is actually the thing that has bugged me for quite a long time. But, the AMK kids actually has been transformed into two ways. One is as additional casts in ETG, and one is transferred on a shared verse I have for a long time with a friend. The new branding is called Interbellum, taken from the timeline set on the verse. As you can see on any entries about AMK, I found that things I wrote are very loosely based on the Wizarding World itself and it kinda creates its own lore. So we thought, why don't we set up a main lore for all of our kids, put all the work on it entirely, and that's that. It's been really fun brainstorming about the verse from the zero, and it's what we mainly do now. That being said, the entries about AMK are still preserved as an AU notes. We also have another AUs we made back then that we've compiled. Slice of LifeCome to think of it, I haven't write the conception notes for Date and Aya, haha. I will eventually do that, when I get enough material to write for sure. And in tie to this... I think I really should finish the colored sketch that I've been shelfing since 2021................... Four more to go................................ entourageThis is the only verse that I think I haven't written much.
But then, I don't even intend to do deep dive about it as the others hahahaha. Still, in tie to the AMK kids that is transferred on this verse, I think I would rewrite their conception journal by adding Interbellum and ETG sides and rearrange the structure. I..................... might try to write some conception notes about the OG four kids, when I have time. When I could think of what I want to write. For the upcoming stuff, honestly, I don't think I can share anything beyond what I've shared for now. The only thing I have in mind currently is importing the Twitter threads about the kids here, as scribbles. Since yes, it's just scribbles for conceptions, without adding much to the actual story, haha. The threads itself are plenty, and I think I need to rewrite some bits too, so I think I'll do that on my own pace, as usual. I guess that's all for now! Fingers crossed. Comments are closed.
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